Over the hills, and far away

Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know.
- Mitch Albom


I'm Jess. Online I go by Una.
I'm a cook, a reader, an artist, a lover, a kitty cuddler, a music junkie, a photographer, a DJ, a giant pair of breasts, a wolf, a best friend, an enemy, a guardian, a victim.
I'm not an eskimo, much of a writer or a bear.

My religion is life, nature and love.

I wish to live in a cabin in a forest, and spend my last breaths in a meadow.

Be prepared, since it seems I'll be using this page as a vomitorium for whatever courses through my brain or gets captured by my hands during the day. :)
This is my husband, Mani. He gives me kisses all night and sits on my head all morning.
Life is good with cats.

This is my husband, Mani. He gives me kisses all night and sits on my head all morning. Life is good with cats.

Last Year : 200+ lbs

Last Year : 200+ lbs

Now : 180 lbs.

Now : 180 lbs.

I still need to lose about 15-20 more pounds, but I’m getting there.

This is a much-needed ego boost here. :)

Whenever I hear the Cure’s “Just Like Heaven” on the radio, I think of you. And I just can’t stop smiling.

I am disgusting.

I just got the best toy ever

Frustration.

You know, I’m beginning to not care. It’s kind of not worth it anymore to try and then get rejected every time. It’s not fun.

I wrote a lot more here, but then I deleted it.

You know, I understand why it won’t happen, but I can’t help feeling disappointed. Time to clean and wipe my eyes. I need to stop getting too far ahead of myself and hopeful.

I wish I was far away, I’m tired of everything collapsing around me, everything failing. Me failing at everything. Hating myself. Looking at myself in the mirror and just absolutely hating what I see. Every day.

God help me I miss the scent of a Canadian fall. Next year I am going to Canada or Europe for some period of time. I don’t care where or how I go. I must.

Wednesday

Im thinking wine. Im thinking maybe a swim. I’m thinking chocolate. I’m thinking divine music. Aaah.

I want to soak some sun tomorrow but the day will not allow me :(

I feel like I need to lose a million pounds still, I’m paranoid being alone in my house, and I feel incredibly happy right now, because of everything else.

Edit:

Did I mention that now that Im not freaking out about what my body is doing to me, I’m incredibly horny with no real relief tonight? Bah.